We had our last coversation on the phone tonight. I actually wasn't all that broken up about it. I had prayed really hard last night. I bore my soul to God and begged for help. The amazing thing was that I felt great all day today. No sadness. No regret for the decision I was making. I knew that I had to break it off before I did something stupid.
We talked about random stuff for a while, skirting around the real issue at hand. I won't bore you with the details, since all of my other posts are usually too freaking long. In the end I just told him that I had a goal that I was pursuing and that I hoped he would respect that I didn't want anything to deter me from that. I could tell that it hurt him a little, but he asked me to keep his phone number and call him if I ever changed my mind.
I almost said "see you later" when I hung up, but caught myself and just said "goodbye."
I feel so relieved.