Here We Go Again

Well, it's a brand new year. 2007 is gone, and we've already hit the road running in 2008.

Every year I create a new mantra that has something to do with finding a spouse that year. A marriage mantra, if you will. A few that I can remember from the past are "Say I Do in 2002", "Single no more in 2004", and "Getting some sex in 2006". Yeah, I know that last one doesn't rhyme as well, but it was still worthy. Last year's mantra was "The next step to Heaven in 2007". Well, things didn't quite go as planned in said mantra. Instead of finding a person of the female persuasion to court and marry (sorry, I just threw up a little bit in my mouth) I instead nearly exploded from burying my gayness for so many years. I came out to my family (my mom came out to several of my aunts and uncles for me, how sweet). I wrecked a friendship with a gay guy I worked with. I had a brief fling with a fellow Moho blogger. And, it all basically went downhill from there. I pretty much nose-dived (or is it nose-dove?) into the bottom of the hill. Crash. Burn. Blood. Carnage. The second half of the year was a mess.

I've blogged about a lot that has gone on with me over this last year, but I've kept the majority portion of it to myself. It's far too personal - especially since so many of you know me quite well. I don't particularly like broadcasting all of the craziness in my life to everybody out there. I do want to keep some measure of dignity, believe it or not.

Anyhoo, I am a very different person than who I was last year. It's kind of surprising to me. Now I'm starting out 2008 freely admitting the reason why I've remained single, and I'm wondering about this year's mantra. Should it be marriage-based again? Or, should it be focused on something that seems a little more acheivable, so that I can actually follow through with it?

Is it "Find a mate in 2008", or is it "Gay and great in 2008"?