As someone who has emerged from the tunnel with shattered faith, I sometimes think about if God really does exist. Part of me wants to be realistic and just accept the fact that he probably doesn't, given the evidence of the chaos and catastrophe inflicted upon mankind because of (and in the name of) religion. On the other hand, I've always been "in tune" with a spiritual part of myself, and still am. That part really wants to believe in an afterlife. I love D more than anything, and I don't want it to just be until we die.
So, my agnosticism prevails. I'm not completely persuaded one way or the other.
One thing that does persuade me toward the realistic view is some of the lame statements from people with respect to the love of God. I say that with reference to Scott's blog, and his seemingly impending split from Sarah. The things that the self-righteous religious folk comment on there just makes me fume. Other comments just make me roll my eyes at the absurdity.
One of the recent comments that I found absurd was "God loves you and is mindful of this entire situation." Really? If God is mindful of the situation, then why doesn't God do anything about it? Why did he encourage them to get married in the first place, knowing that it would end up in a tremendous amount of pain for everyone involved? Why send children into a family that he knew wouldn't be able to stay together? Honestly, it seems more like God's cruel joke than him being loving and mindful.
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- Max Power
- Gay (actually) Mormon (culturally) guy in his mid-30s. Lives with the love of his life. Eats food every day. Loves to sleep at night. Works hard for the money, so you better treat me right.
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So, I'm just skimming through my reader, catching up on a week's backlog of posts, and I come to this one, barely four hours old...
It meant quite a lot to me to know that someone I've only met once is reading my blog... and that he is interested enough in Sarah and me and our situation that a self-righteous comment (one that I had chosen to ignore because I didn't have the energy to respond) prompts an indignant blog post.
Thanks for caring. :)
I've come full circle (almost) from super believing, doubting nothing, to agnostic, to atheist, to agnostic, and back to believing. It took place over a period of about 12 years. How I believe now is much different than before. My faith is much simpler. I believe in God. I believe in the atonement of Christ.
There are also many things that I frankly admit I don't know that I once thought I did, and I'm good with that. I like being more open minded to new ideas. It actually feels more honest to admit that I simply don't have all the answers.
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